Fics like Do you love me now? Do I let you down?

After the Boxing Day fight, Ilya's place doesn't almost crash and Shane doesn't propose. Instead, he turns to self harm to cope with the self hatred feels as a result of the Metro's hostility, Ilya's inability to communicate, and his belief that he's the reason for everything wrong in their relationship and the team dynamic. What starts as a self proclaimed unhealthy coping mechanism comes to a head when Ilya finds out and realizes just how much he underestimated the degree to Shane was struggling and the impact hiding had on him. Will they find their way back to each other or will Shane let his depression eat him alive, leaving everything he ever loved, including hockey, to the past. ___ I really want to explore a story where Shane struggles deeply with his mental health. I find it hard to imagine that everything didn't take more of a toll on him. It's dark but there is light at the end of the tunnel. This is pretty heavy so if self harm or eating disorders are triggering for you pls don't read!

You may also like

  1. Boston pride to Boston home by Zaz14 (Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid)
  2. Desperate Measures by dabforpalermo (Heated Rivalry (TV))
  3. Sleep, My Joy, Sleep by lexaproeddie (Heated Rivalry (TV))
  4. something you can fix by some1_around (Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid)
  5. safe place to land by orphan_account (Heated Rivalry (TV))
  6. with my eyes i see your war by spider_boy42 (Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types, Heated Rivalry (TV))
  7. at your service by PenAndInkPrincess (Heated Rivalry (TV))
  8. What The Body Keeps by Charlieredbear (Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types)
  9. please, won't you (make a family with me) by virtual_typewriter (Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid)
  10. Shane Hollander Deserves Better Classmates by niinis (Heated Rivalry (TV))
  11. Hit Me Where It Hurts by Willow_Writess (Heated Rivalry (TV))
  12. he looks so cute wrapped round my finger by justhockey (Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid)
  13. Such a Pretty Crier by Bruja_oscura (Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid)
  14. Even When I'm Quiet, I Love You, Baby, I Promise. by shanebug_2481 (Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types)
  15. Remember when you thought I was boring? by JJ_Smith (Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types, Heated Rivalry (TV), more)
  16. Ilya Rozanov the Golden Boy and Shane Hollander the Asshole by CaptainKitler (Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid, Heated Rivalry (TV))
  17. forwards beckon reboud by Literal_Multifandom_Trashcan (Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid, Heated Rivalry (TV))
  18. nothing fucks with my baby by justhockey (Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid)
  19. read between the lines by AutumnFoxed (Heated Rivalry (TV))
  20. Two-Four-Eight-One-Oh-Eight (Ilya Hollander. Shane Rozanov.) by persimmonysnicket (Heated Rivalry (TV))