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Buck was sobbing by the end of the song, but he still played it again. Because it felt so much like his life right then. He was terrified and haunted. By everything he’d been through and so much of it involved Eddie that there was no denying it anymore even if he wanted to. He’d been so stupid to think he didn’t love his best friend. And it hurt so much because he knew it would never be reciprocated. Eddie could accept people in his life being queer, but he’d never accept being that way himself. Buck didn’t know if Eddie was or wasn’t in love with him too, but that didn’t matter. Because the way Eddie made Buck feel was enough. As the song played on, Buck just felt how much he loved Eddie and how he’d already accepted the heartache that came with it. He was heartbroken for something he’d never gotten and would never get to have. or Buck listens to music and finally processes his emotions about all the crap that happened in his life. Ravi joins him, Hen and Chimney are confused and worried, and Eddie is sticking to avoidance and internal panic, as is his way.

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