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Jo knew that if he stayed, he would only end up miserable. But as he watched Yuma, he realized that maybe he didn’t mind. Maybe he even loved the misery, as long as it was Yuma who was giving it to him. Jo loved it the most when he felt wanted. He wanted to feel necessary, important, absolutely irreplaceable in Yuma's destructive life. It was sick. He knew that if Yuma showed him even a fraction of a gentle gesture, Jo would be his loyal dog forever, because he felt like nothing without him. It was his own special kind of Ouroboros—a coil of pain eating itself to create more pain inside of him. These were parts of his own mind, his own soul, that would always be tainted by Yuma’s hands. His hands. His hands. His hands. Every single dark, fucked-up fantasy Jo harbored inside him now was entirely because of him. Yuma was wrong. Yuma was sick. Yuma was as sick as Jo. If God was watching him—watching the supposed "good guy" completely abandon his salvation for a boy who was tearing them both apart—then fine. Let Him watch. Let God look down at him and see exactly how much Jo worshipped ruin.

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