Fics like god, i’ve tried (but i think it’s about time)

I am not asking to be happy. I have never asked for that. I am only asking to be different. Please, Lord, make me different. Make me the thing they need me to be. Remove from me this— this affliction, this error, this deviation from Your design. I do not understand why You made me this way if You did not mean for me to be this way. And if You meant for me to be this way then I do not understand why, why, why is it a sin. And if it is a sin then I am a sinner, so then forgive me but I cannot repent for something I have never done, can I, can I repent for a feeling, can a man be damned for the direction of his hunger, for the frequency of his loneliness, for wanting the wrong mouth, the wrong hands, for lying awake in the dark imagining— He turns onto his side. —imagining his shirt open to the second button and the skin underneath warm, and if I pressed my mouth there I would feel his pulse and it would be fast, would it be fast, would his heart beat faster if I— Or: Park Sunghoon meets Sim Jaeyun on the Titanic.

Fics like god, i’ve tried (but i think it’s about time)

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