Fics like Something New

Control has always been Eddie’s thing. Not because he likes it or it makes him feel powerful. But because control is what had seeped into his bones at eight years old when he became the man of the house, and he never knew how to let it go. And, Eddie has learned, over and over, that other people’s control often comes with a cost he’s the one expected to pay. His father’s control of the Diaz family left Eddie in charge. His mother’s control over the Diaz family reputation led him to standing outside a gay bar at 32 and not 18 with a fake ID just to get a taste. He thinks of his father. The way Ramon Diaz can look at you and make it feel like you’re eight years old again, standing too straight, trying too hard, waiting for judgment. Eddie thinks of his mother’s quiet commentary, the way she can make disappointment sound like concern and call it love. He thinks of church—stale incense, polished wood, the heavy expectation that you were supposed to come in already knowing the rules and abide by them, or else. Hen’s voice loops in his head, calm and offhand. Dating shouldn’t feel like a performance. or, Eddie Diaz falls in love with Buck and it makes him question everything he knows

Fics like Something New

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