Fics like le déluge

It takes him a couple months to realize that he's popular even beyond his small circle. That people whisper about him on campus because they find him handsome. That they don't suspect anything at all—he's just a pretty boy they can admire, giggle over, crush on. It's heady, this victory. And it's easier, after that, to sink into the burgeoning love he has for his own body. This body that he has so carefully shaped: surgery; hormone therapy; late night or early morning gym sessions to get some muscle definition, sneaking swims in the school pool after hours so no one would see the scars on his chest; hours of following vocal lessons online to change his voice; hours practicing how to walk, how to carry himself, how to blend in with his cis peers. He carved Zhang Hao into existence piece by bloody piece and he's proud of who he's become. Or: It has been a long, difficult road from a quiet house in Fujian to arena stages in Seoul. Now, Zhang Hao struggles to balance idol life with secrets that he has kept buried for years, and then there is this love for Sung Hanbin that just won't die.

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