Fics like i was who i wasn't, until you.

faifa doesn't close his eyes when he says, "you're driving me crazy, wine. every. single. time. all i can think about is you. even when you're in front of me, i still miss you. there's no passing moment that i live in this life that i don't want you. need you. crave you." love you, but it's too much to say. maybe someday, these words won't be as daunting as they are now. and faifa finally flutters his eyes closed when he confides into another whirlwind of emotions, "what have you done to me?" faifa wants, needs, craves wine in ways he’s never allowed himself to feel before. but there's unspoken fear in this blasphemous longing—of being seen, of being loved, of what happens when the masks are gone. is it enough to be himself while confronting someone who has witnessed his best and worst? and when love feels like both salvation and destruction, will he dare to hold onto it?

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