Fics like you're all i have to lose

He sees forever when he looks at Eddie, but he might never get that. He might not even get tomorrow with him. And how is that fair? How can he lose him when he’s only just found him - when he’s only just realised? God, how is he supposed to tell Chris? “I can’t - I can’t. Bobby,” Buck chokes. “Bobby, don’t make me tell Christopher again. I can’t. I can’t do it again, please…” He knows he’s borderline incoherent - knows that he sounds like he’s losing his mind. Because he is. He’s spiralling. Buck grasps at his chest like he can somehow crack his own ribs open and give himself room to breathe, but it doesn’t work. It doesn’t work, and he’s gasping, and…

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