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He had never really considered he would spend his senior year as a sin-eater. It had never crossed his mind, in all those times when he was small and looking hopefully towards the future as if it had been made of stars, that he'd spend that future, once he got there, swallowing the pain of others like Charybdis. He wasn't sure when he'd stopped seeing stars in the future; Scott only knew that he had, that before him was nothing but a blank void. All the stars in his life were behind him. He'd given up on looking back at the days before the Bite. He couldn't afford that kind of thinking, to indulge in the wanting, so visceral he could feel it crawling in his gut, for a time in which nothing was expected of him except moderately acceptable grades and maybe enough mindfulness to take dinner to his mother on night shift every once in a while. If he touched it at all it would overwhelm him and drag him under. He'd thought more than once that it might not be so bad to surrender to the undertow, but that notion always came up hard against the bars of the same cage that held all the rest of his thoughts. He couldn't do that to the others. What he wanted was immaterial.

Fics like I Appear Missing

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